So yes, I found myself with nothing to do so I decided to write a little something about my life at this exact moment. Enjoy if you can and want to. :)
I've learned a lot about myself recently. As in, I disappoint myself very easily. In itself, this probably wouldn't be that bad. The problem is what I do AFTER I let myself down. For example, the other day I decided to fast (as in, not eat anything while I earnestly pray to God). I had myself all hyped up, ready to go. I scoffed in my head at a close friend, who said that she had always tried to fast but couldn't do it because of weakness. Well, that's because you're supposed to rely on God to sustain you through your weakness, I thought smugly. Like I was so spiritually savvy? Right. Well, I earnestly prayed all morning. I made it till about noon, and then the first cheesy-delicious square of lasagna I saw somehow found its way into my stomach. I know that this in itself is not some terrible sin that negates all the prayers I have ever uttered. However, me being so ridiculous, it crushed me, and I progressed into a few days of spiritual emptiness. I realized later that this was probably Satan whispering in my head, You can't even fast for God. You worthless little girl, God is disappointed in you. And I dumbly, embarassingly, listened to the lies.
Ridiculous, right? I know I'm ridiculous. I have a lot to learn about following my Savior. But I won't stop following, learning along the way.
In other areas of my life, we just got back from Birmingham where we found a very possible rental house. We will have to get rid of a lot of stuff, but it's really about time. We have way way way too much STUFF. Jesus didn't even have a "place to rest His head", so why do I need a whole closet full of clothes? Yeah, I'm still working on that "storing up treasures in Heaven" part!
Dios le bendiga.
:)
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